Tonight I made my way to the Riverhorse for free beer and to watch Holy Shit! play. One of the bartenders was quitting so he was thanking his community. I appreciated the sentiment, even if I could not enjoy the entropic situation. I hate bars; more than that I hate going to public places solely to buy something which forces people who are otherwise alienated to feel a false sense of closeness. I watched the documentary What a Way to Go the other night at a friends and one of the interviewees talked about bars as being "dark, loud and crowded because if you turned the lights on and the music down people wouldn't know how to interact" (paraphrasing) and although this is hardly a new thought I always shrugged disconsolately and shouldered my way in. I always remember bars in rpgs resembling the opposite-brightly lit places with the music subdued and conversation being the focus. Some bars retain this in the real world but very few do it well. I stayed for a less than an hour after holy shit played and left out of boredom. Not with the people, but with the notion itself. I biked quickly home with my headphones playing Stormcrow and continued to listen to their epic crusty metalness in the darkness of my abode. I made a phone call to a good friend expressing my rage and disgust with how apathetic and miserable most people were. I decided recently that I would no longer be tolerating anything that made me miserable and so far this has achieved mixed results. I have fewer friends but better ones and with the exception of not being self-sufficient economically my life is better than it has been of late. People continue to madden and disappoint me but the grace is not letting it affect what I do.
 Hell, I even have two different people that I'm "seeing". I also wrote some ideas out for an article I'm going to write for the next Total Destroy. I'm excited to start it tomorrow.

I wrote something a few days ago for an online rpg I'm currently running in and thought I'd post it here just because those stumbling on my journal might enjoy a bit o' fun.